‘Cause you had a bad day
You’re taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don’t know
You tell me don’t lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You see what you like
And how does it feel one more time?
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
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I feel broken…Bad Day Allowed!
It just dawned on me that I’m having a bad day. Maybe it’s a bad week. Heck, I don’t really know what it is. I don’t think I should write this post because it means I’m vulnerable. Vulnerable to the outside world, vulnerable to criticism, vulnerable to judgement. I struggle to find a purpose and meaning in my life. There are things that I just don’t understand. There are things that I wish could change. There are things that I wish would make me whole again. I feel broken.
Being a stay-at-home parent is no fun for me. I feel like I’m wasting my time by not contributing to society. Whatever society that is. I wanted to do such great things. I had such big dreams. But I’ve failed at my pursuit of the happiness that I so desperately thought was guaranteed to me. I feel broken.
I feel like I am stuck in this cycle of life with no way out. You may say that I’m depressed…well maybe I am? You may say that my life is what I made it…well maybe it is? Who really knows and who really has the answers. I keep moving forward, almost zombie like, hoping that there is something better out there for me. I feel broken.
Social media doesn’t help me figure it out. Everything looks so glamorous in the big, bad world. Luxurious clothing, nice houses, lots of friends…. It all looks so grand. Then, I realize…here I sit. I have none of those worldly things. I’m married to an alcoholic. My marriage is in name only. I feel broken.
I weigh way more than I should. The doctor said that I needed to lose 70 pounds. I want to, but can’t. Healthy food is too expensive. Gym membership is too expensive. A personal trainer is way to expensive. I don’t get 5 minutes alone at home. How am I supposed to lose this weight? I don’t want to be fat. I don’t want to fail. I want to look like the people in the magazines and be healthy too. I feel broken.
I started sewing because I wanted to make clothes for my boys since we really couldn’t afford to purchase them. I eased my way back into sewing with simple projects that I learned a long time ago. Then I hit a wall where my creativity faltered. I feel like no matter how hard I try I just can’t get everything together. I feel broken.
Being a stay-at-home mom is rewarding beyond what the present shows! I get to spend more time with my kids than most parents. I was blessed to see every first word, every first step, and first poop in the toilet. I am successful and an asset to society. I’m raising America’s future. I own my own business…actually 3 of them and run a household of 5.
I’m not depressed…I’m having a bad day! I am allowed to feel broken. I am allowed to be a flawed human. I am allowed to not be a perfect parent. I am allowed to be an emotionally driven person. You are too!
Social media is a joke. People purposely only post the greatest moments in their lives. You don’t see the behind the scenes broken plates, mom yelling at kid, marriage on the rocks, etc. You only see what the person wants you to see. Every single person on this planet has had a bad day! Don’t let the fake social media fool you.
I can make all the excuses on the planet about why I can’t get healthy. Until I decide that being healthy is important to me I won’t get there. Excuses are overrated! Just do it, as Nike famously says. I am my biggest hurdle…Move over self!
My kids love the handmade clothing I make for them. So why am I crying about how many outfits I don’t make. The light and joy in their eyes when it’s mama made is way more important than any self doubt. See my kids are important to me and their opinion matters. Self doubt is a lie I tell myself!
So what if I had a bad day! I will overcome it. Society forces us to hide behind a fake wall of secrecy where no one is allowed to show that they are broken in public. One of my favorite movies, Gone with the Wind, illustrates how it is possible to overcome adversity and bad days! There are a million quotes from the movie that lend themselves to the story of a Phoenix. How do you overcome your bad days? How do you rise above?
There’s an important thing to remember about yourself and your life…